Past Self To Future Me

  Dungeons and dragon Okay, I am back again after maybe 2 or 3 days. I need to clear my head first. I don’t know what the hell I am doing with my life but I need to understand this. What do I have to understand? That's the thing you need to figure out. Understand? Are you a teacher or something? Anyways. Let’s begin writing an Epic! Yes, with dragons and wizards. Where the battle is held against mages and warlords. You dare defy me! Says the elder mage. Know your place as a warlord! You have been abandoned by the elder academy of magic unless you stop killing and looting villages.  You are nothing but a sad old mage who will die soon. Time is a curse I tell you. You should join me before the inevitable and we shall rule the lands of Tameria.  Old mage sight and turns back, reminiscing the days of young Valehan and how he used to work his way with people. The cunning look and the mischievous smile depict as if a great big plan is swirling inside his head that nobody knows....

  Currently, it’s 1,380367000 in Nepali rupees. Damn! That’s a huge amount of money. I have to earn that shit. Manifestation should be my ultimate goal. I mean My ultimate goal would be to earn money without hurting others. Legalities and rules are made by people in power so you know what they do to keep themselves in power, they bend the rules according to their benefits. So I don’t think there’s anything illegal except killing. What the fuck! Where am I going with this?   Let’s break it down. First, earn 67000 money. I mean 67000 should be your revenue that flows in your monthly deposit. And we go for 300,000. Damn! From 67K to 300,000. Jumping from five digits to six feels like an overwhelming achievement. Feels like a daunting task and we're not even halfway there. Now I feel like reaching $10M is an insurmountable task but I have set my mind.  Damn! I thought breaking it down could make it simple to earn but I am getting overwhelmed only by the thought of reachi...

  I am stuck between scrolling reels/TikTok/shorts content on the phone and experiencing my life. Yes, I know they are a source of information, enjoyment, and entertainment but the faster it comes, the faster it goes. It leaves you feeling a rush of emotion and craving for more. The more you go deep into the rabbit hole, the more it becomes addictive. For me. I have realized that it is nothing but a waste of time. I was about to write something but forgot about it. It’s like a spark that dies faster in a blink of an eye. What did I realize but forgot just now? It may not be a waste of time but something you attract. You know, the contents are filtered according to your preferences. So if you are interested in motivational videos, the network will feed you more motivational videos that will make you crave for more motivational videos. But they are nothing but short videos. The faster it motivates you the faster it leaves you incomplete. That is exactly what I was thinking but couldn...

  1/7/2025 7:55 AM I am back again. With my thoughts. It’s crazy how I can easily get influenced by people and things. Is it curiosity? I wish not to use Grammerly and.. Ah, who am I deceiving? Anyways, You know, yesterday we went to the airport to farewell Suana for her new journey to the land of freedom. America! Fuck yeah! At the airport, I noticed lots of people leaving the country. I think the final destination for any young Nepali is the airport. The journey of almost all Neplease ends at the international airport and starts somewhere abroad. Damn! I see many people crying and sobbing. Their eyes filled with tears as they hugged their family for a final goodbye. There was this one particular man who seemed to be in Kathmandu just to farewell his son. Man! I have never seen a father wiping tears of his son as he tells him goodbye. The father was left motionless for seven minutes, trying to process the situation. He didn’t cry though. I know he wants to so bad but there were no...

  June 25 2021 Fri (Final) It all started at the cyber lab because we were inside this old school (probably a government school built in a village area with a tin roof) Me, my friend Robin and a bunch of people were there doing work on the computer. It was time to leave and everybody was settling to go home. Robin called me to go but I was still doing something on the computer.  After some time, I stood up to leave and saw everybody was gone and the TV on the wall was still playing some songs. I decided to switch it off and head home. When I went out, it was already night. It was like 9 o'clock or something? The moon was way up along with clouds and I didn't know my way home. looking down on the muddy path, I saw a man. He looked like someone I recognized, so I followed him.   The road ended up two ways , one leading straight and the other was up the hill.  He took the inclined way  and so did I. Upon following him, I saw strange people around me. Little mo...