3/23/2025

 

3/23/2025 7:25 AM

I want a MUJI fountain pen. But there are alternatives like, let’s see. Nop! I want a MUJI fountain pen and that's final. Heehhhh anyway, enough searching for the best and start typing. I am here to do some typing and nothing else. Yes, wherever I was, I wish my hands were fast enough to catch my thoughts. You know what, you don’t even have to type at all, you can make it voice-activated and AI will type your words into pages. Yes, Maybe that's one thing I can do, I mean I can take advantage of the technology. But it’s good to type. I dont know, I have never done that. There’s a guy on the internet and now I don’t know his name. Shit! I mentioned him somewhere in the past pages and now forgotten his name. Basically, he gives good advice and I also like his disposition. All I am saying is I should change my thought process of typing shit on pages and rather use something efficient. But I think I am leaving authenticity or what we call, originality in the name of efficiency. NO that’s not it. I don’t know but I should try out different things you know. Like, You know, video message. What the hell is that guy's name? Just a sec.

Vinh Quang Giang. Damn! It’s so hard to remember his name. His Instagram ID is Askvin and it was on the front page the moment I opened Instagram. Yeah, So his idea of having a fluent speech, ah not only speech but confidence to present a voice in front of the crowd is to have a 10 min video of you walking and talking in your room. You can interpret the video in three ways, audio, video, and transcribe. I'm going to start doing that to see if it really works or not. Because I now know I don’t know how to talk to people more professionally. Yesterday I had a client who was really fond of my pen and ink. I could have made a great conversation, not that the conversation was going in the wrong direction, it was great but I could have made it even greater by confidently presenting myself. Oh yeah, today I have to go sell my art. That would be awesome. My first painting sold. Yeah, Boieeee. There’s so much more to goooo. 

You need to study art to understand it and appreciate it. I had a dream similar to this one, but I forgot about it. I remember reading hard about something that would later be helpful. Art is like that. That is maybe why so many people want to know the meaning behind the scenes. How is it created or built? What inspired it? And so on. 

I am now starting to dream big. Hmp, typical me. Every time I build something to sell, I dream of having a lot of money from selling those things. Like the time I dreamt of making a lakh by selling that vr google. Stupid past me. I did, you know, try to sell that one Google made out of cardboard and plastic bottles. Fuck! Hehehe, Memories coming back like crashing waves. It was really embarrassing when I went to meet this guy who wanted to buy the cardboard VR. It was at Chabahil and I went there hoping to sell it for maybe 500 rupees. I met him and then he pulled out his phone which was way bigger than I anticipated. It fit the box but it couldn’t fix the angle of the visual. So I went back with the Cardboard Google and a new knowledge that people do have different phones and there’s a thing called Pupillary distance, which means people have different sets of eye distances that really affect the workings of VR. 

Personally, I thought the VR experience was awesome, even if it was made out of cardboard boxes and water bottles. I'm glad I got to experience VR before it became overrated and died slowly. 

I got to do so many things and crafted so many awesome ideas. Maybe that is why my father wanted me to join art college. Back then I thought art was a political thing because I saw books like the art of politics or the art of public speaking or whatever relating to art and politics. Nobody told me my father was saying literal art and crafts. This was a major turning point in my life and I was supposed to be guided accordingly. But as a typical Asian person, we don’t think much about the decisions our unguided kids make. I would do whatever in my power to make sure what my kids are doing, they are fully understanding the concept, scope, and syllabus in it. Because it happened to me I won’t let others fall into the trap. 

Nobody told me back then about the scope and limitations of studying BSCIT. I mean it was computer-related and I played a lot of games so I thought I would be able to create a game after I passed the Bachelor's degree. Turns out, it's about coding, developing, and technical terms with the major focus being web development and hosting sites. I just wanted to build a game and make awesome animations. 

Late in one interview, it opened my eyes. It was also my first-ever interview for a web design job. The guy who was interviewing said to me. 

-What do you want to be? 

-I wanted to be a designer(It's a web design job and I also wanted to design rather than code because it was way out of my understanding).

-You say you wanted to be a designer but you are doing a bachelor's in IT. Why? 

And at that moment, I understood. I was in the wrong place trying to do something right. I mean I was never interested in coding but I wanted to create something. I could have taken multimedia or animation or anything visually aesthetic. Yeah, I did go to apply to MAYA animation which was really hyped back then. But the price was way too high. So I thought, but the price of not doing animations and wasting time on things besides visual arts was even more costly. There’s a saying,” If you think it's expensive to hire a professional, wait until you hire an amateur.” I know I should have wasted my time on things I want rather than things I don’t want. I mean even if It was time and money wasted, at least it’s wasted on doing things I wanted and who knows, later in the future, I might actually make things with the knowledge. Because I will always come back to things I want to build and create. I'm still learning game development, and I am still learning video editing although I lost the opportunity to go to game development and multimedia academy. 

4 years of learning Java, web, and IT-related things yielded nothing because I never wanted to build a web or code my way through bugs. But you know what, I do have my site on WordPress which is a different story and I do need to code while building games. Maybe I was just a lazy student back then with no interest in studying. Maybe. 

But you know what? If I find something cool, I go ahead and do it. Like the crafts, I did with the help of an art attack show. The show guided me really well although it was my sheer curiosity to build the thing that the guy built in his show. I built zombie hands with loads and loads of tape, a light-up castle that took 1 whole week to dry, and I built the magic coloring paper, that one teacher kept and never returned it. I built so many awesome things man just because of that one show that guided me on my every step. I wish someone would have guided me like the guy in the Art Attack show. Not by technical terms and words but by visual wonders and what is possible with curiosity and imagination. Damn! It shaped my future and of course Pokemon too.