3/2/2025

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3/2/2025 8:17 AM

We are into March 2nd already and I haven’t done anything significant. Today however is the start of my plan. It’s time to put the plan into action. With my crappy computer, I am going to make things happen or at least achieve my teenage dream. Hehehee

You think I'm pretty without any makeup on

Do you think I'm funny well I’ll tell you the punchline wrong 

You know you get me so I let my guard down.. No not the Teenage Dream song but my actual dream to build a game during my teenage time. Because I was a game freak back then. My first game console was freaking Gameboy color. That was the start of my future. Things I am right now and things I have done are credited to that one single moment in time when I played my first game on Gameboy Color, Adventure Island. Damn! Memories. From that day onwards, my life was changed. I played games all day and late at night. 

Okay, why are we talking about games all of a sudden? Because it was my childhood dream, I mean it's my teenage dream that’s why. So what was your childhood dream? To build a remote-controlled car. Not just a remote control car, but a transformer car that transforms into a robot. I even drew the workings of the car and its blueprint but it’s lost in time. Damn! We lose so many things with time and we only realise its importance long after we lose it. I really want to get my Pokemon drawing copy from the paste but on the contrary, it’s best to cherish things of the past and keep them where they belong, in the past. The value is also in the losing and if I still were to have those items, it wouldn’t be so precious. Things that are not in our possession seem precious rather than things we have. Just like youth. Anyway, I am lost in the ocean of thoughts. I have to get back to where I was. I mean I am nowhere but still, I need to keep my thoughts aligned and think logically. Past is gone and no amount of effort will bring it back so better look towards the future. 

What do we call a person who sees potential in trash? I mean I saw somebody throwing a great jewelry box that had these briefcase-like clips and opened from the middle. It’s more like a makeup kit box but it has potential. I also see people throwing good wood frames and all the things they consider crappy might actually be a hidden gem. 

I mean we are just like that piece of potential trash. We live to survive and I believe most people don’t strive for more. I mean that's okay if somebody wants to live like that but if you have superhuman strength and you can use it then why not? That’s a hypothesis but what I am saying is we are a bunch of creative people who prefer to consume only. What the hell am I saying? I am just gonna go straight to the trash collection and make something out of it but I cannot do that because I am not the bottle kageze guy. I mean, what do we call the bottle kagaze guy in English? Trash collector. You know I envy them. They have all this cool trash that I don't.

Ahh Shit! I shouldn’t have gone to the internet to search for Bottle Kagaze English name. Spent too much time and it’s 9:11. I was saying something and now I forgot what I was saying. I was saying that I have to leave this writing session soon. It’s 9:12 and In about 15 minutes, I will stop writing. Why do I think I don’t have enough time to write and when I do, I just go to the internet and search random shit till it’s too late and now I don’t have enough time to write. This internet is stealing my time. 

Anyway, I need to search for frames to put in my artwork. I realize the frame wood they put in is not that good. It’s made of softwood and it’s not durable. Yes, it’s good for hanging where it remains still for la ong. But once it is hit by an object….. Imma gonna be straight, My frame broke when it fell from the 5.5 feet wall and broke its frame when it hit the edge of my bed. To prevent such occurrence I require strong and sturdy wood like the one from carrom board, those are sturdy. Heck, a cardboard bigger than that frame that broke cost a lot less than…. I just felt like I invested my money on the wrong thing but the fact that falling and breaking of the frame was my fault. I cannot blame the frame or its build. It’s just my faith and I have to live up to it. But now, I have this distrust of the frame and the tape that was holding it. From now onwards, I will punch a damn hole with the nail to hang frames but never trust tapes to do nail work. I need to earn money or else, I won't be able to afford art. 

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