3/3/2025

 

3/3/2025 8:10AM

I have to write something and this computer is making me work by cleaning up spaces for C drive since most of my space is occupied by Unity. Concentrate man. Okay, let’s write. But what can I write? What can I say except you're welcome. That’s a song from Moana. There’s Moana 2 out and I haven’t even watched the trailer. Okay. You know, time will pass anyway so I might well say something in this fleeting moment. 

I am waiting for Premiere Pro to shut up because it’s making a lot of noise rendering my video. Yesterday, I spent most of my time hanging out with friends. I was out to help Amrit, but I guess he doesn’t need help. What the hell am I talking about? I just want to say that it’s been two whole days since I haven’t exercised or meditated. I am going to do it this morning now. I have to make that a morning routine rather than a night one. I keep on doing the important things at the final hours, resulting in late-night work and sleeping an hour late. 

I had my routine yesterday that I must follow, but instead, I went to friends and played chess which I don’t want to do. It’s not that I don’t like chess. It’s amazing. But I have to put time, effort, study patterns, and techniques and there were times(even yesterday) when I played chess when there were so many things left undone. I had to work out and meditate but I played chess, Drawing? Nop, chess. Forget about reading when you have chess installed on your phone. It's exhilarating and a waste of my time. But you know what? I am going to learn to master the art of chess someday, just not at the present moment because I have a lot of things going on and I must focus on important stuff now. 

After all this drawing, painting, reading, writing, and business stuff, I am going to learn and master chess. But there is another thing I should learn before and that is Dungeons and Dragons. Yup. I must bring D&D to Nepal where people feel comfortable socializing and making new friends, unlike Clubs where you…. I don’t know what people do in this kind of club but anyways

. And it’s 8:27 already. I wish time could move at a slower pace when I am typing. Or I could move at a faster pace when typing but none of those are possible. I can at least type fast. Should I buy that keyboard thing that they use on the court? The thing has only maybe a few keys for efficiency. Yup, you could say a whole lot of words with just a few clicks. You can even write a whole rap song from Eminem Live. I mean it would be great but it might have a steep learning curb. 

Oh.. I just realized that I should buy an artist keyboard to animate or even draw digitally because I am left-handed. These keyboards and laptops are not designed for left-handed and it’s really awkward to put the keyboard on the right and try clicking keys while drawing. It is really inconvenient to use a keyboard like that. I wish there was… Naa I should not wish such things since they are just wishful thinking. First, I should earn a buttload of money only then, I am allowed to wish. Shit! I gotta earn some money for my art supply. 

You know, I am doing things I want to right now and I am stepping out of my comfort zone to the world of social media and online platforms. It’s awkward and feels fake but I have to first fake it till I make it. There was this one guy on the internet, I forgot his name but he is a motivational speaker and he really gives good and logical explanations. I won’t search for his name now because I don’t want to get distracted by social media while I am writing. He says that when you see a beginner performing anything, it seems fake. Playing guitar, dancing, drawing, you name it. But as he polishes his skills and keeps practicing, the fakeness goes away leaving the person with pure skill and gracious coordination. Every master was once a beginner. And it’s just stuck with me like, Yeah! We don’t master the art as soon as we step into the realm of some new skills. It takes time, effort, and perseverance and only then, we improve through repetition and practice. And it resonates like a hitting eureka moment. Manifestation and all that wanna-be, It’s actually true. Believing is half the battle. You gotta be mentally ready and fail faster. Each time you fail, you get closer to success. Someone said that it's failure that teaches you and makes you learn. Success gives you gratification and motivation but failure gives you lessons to tackle future problems. And that someone is me. Sike! Fake it till you make it. Remember that. 9:00. Vinh Quang Giang is his name. It took me 23 minutes to search for this guy. I mean the whole 20 minutes, I just scrolled around and searched for YouTube logos to make. It must be a premium feature or something. Damn! I got 20 minutes of distractions and at around 3 minutes, I realized I had this guy saved in my motivation bookmark, so I went there and found him. Distractions are everywhere on the internet. First, it was a sort of entertainment but now, it's distracting that we can do so much on the internet except be productive. It’s a powerful tool that we can use for us or against us. After fire and electricity, the internet is the biggest resource that mankind has ever harvested. First, it was fire and whoever had control over fire was considered all-powerful. And then came electricity and with it, a whole new industrial era. Now, it's the person who has control of data and information the most powerful of all. And the amazing part about this internet era is. Common people can jump into this powerful bandwagon and taste the power of social media online. I mean, any common person with the right attitude and strategy can become viral and if that person has the disposition to keep moving forward along with scandals and hot takes then he might as well make a mark on the vast ocean of online sensation. But with great power comes great responsibilities. When your voice matters, you better be careful to choose words for there are millions of people craving for the taste of such power and some can go all the way to bend your ideas, manipulating people against you. What the hell am I talking about? Just because you can be famous doesn’t mean you have to be. Fame has its own perks and drawbacks so choose carefully. I mean, who would refuse to become famous. Such power is irresistible or maybe some like to have a peaceful life of their own, away from the bustling crowds. When God chooses you to become king, you become the king and control your kingdom for god's sake. When you are chosen to sweep the floor, you sweep the floor like there’s no tomorrow. My point is, if you must, then do it with all your will and all you might like. It's the only thing you should do or you can do. Better to learn from it than to run from it. It's 9:45 already! I should stop writing and do other things. Damn time! Never stopping for anybody. It just keeps on moving forward to infinity and beyond. That’s it for today.