3/7/2025

 

3/7/2025 7:26 AM

Last night,  I watched an hour of chess tactics on YouTube for at least, I think 40 minutes. After that, it was 12 and I went to bed. It’s not only the timer but your body tells you to sleep after 12. Anyway, recently I have found chess tactics and plays really interesting. I mean I didn’t know chess is so deep and so intricate. Before, I used to play just for fun and now, It has so many rules, tactics, and gameplay and I want to know them now. When you understand the rules and strategies of chess, you begin to understand chess memes, blunders, misses, and all sorts of involuntary communication. Like why bishops are called snipers, why a rook and bishops are greater than a queen, and why you always make a pawn chain. I am slowly beginning to think like Emmit from The Lego Movie when he finally becomes the master builder. But I am not there yet. 

Okay, enough about chess but I should do something about nighttime. I will read books then. It’s decided. But today, I have things to do. Those are

Make a workout routine. 

Buy an iPad cover and tempered glass. 

Procreate

I don’t know how I will buy Procreate now because it’s… I think I know how I will pay for Procreate. I will ask Suana to buy me an Apple gift card. That’s a good idea. But what the hell am I going to do now? What about apple pencil? I will use Ramesh's apple pencil for now. Okay. So yeah. I have still not unlocked the power of writing because I don’t know. I still can't believe I have a freaking Ipad 11 Air M2 128gb and I still can’t believe that Gaurav is now married. It’s my turn now but I’ve got nobody so that’s fine. I dont mind if I don’t ever get married. It’s my parents who are worried. You know, when you see your parents getting worried about me, I know at some point I am gonna get worried about my children's future. One solution for me is to never have children but that’s just running away from problems rather than dealing with them. We must understand that everything is temporary so just do it and let the waves decide where the ship should sail. I only have control over winds and that's all I need to lead my life. Take opportunities and turn them in your favor. I am again blabbering about random life stuff but that’s what the writing is about, to clear my mind out of this mess and bring myself to the light. I have to understand what’s the most important to me, even if it's tiny changes or small things. Sometimes one small thing over time can bring great changes, positive or negative. It’s our choice to pick the task and move ahead. All we can do is keep moving forward with the passing of time. There’s nothing we can do so we might as well do things we can. Pick your poison carefully.

What’s good for my soul? Things are rapidly changing and obtaining an iPad is a massive step forward in my career and purpose. So I should act accordingly. I mean that one incident had me heartbroken and now, life wants me to spend some more money on an iPad but I'm broke af. I know I should earn money or I should have earned money to take care of this opportunity when it arrived. Hmm, why didn’t I think of that before? Hmp. No. I don’t think life works like that. I mean. You know. This is a kafkasque world where we are running around circles, monthly. 

I know if I have money, I can eat whatever I want and go wherever and buy whatever I can. I mean I will have money to do things but I will have no time for those things. And at the end of the month. The money is gone. I mean I spend more now that I have money and… Ahh shit what the hell I am talking about. I mean to say that only earning money is not the answer but investing it to make it more is what everybody should do now. Money is an obsolete piece of trash if you cannot make more money out of it. It’s even worse when you indulge in pleasure like smoking, drinking, dating, and excessive eating outside. Money is a power that can either build you or destroy you. It’s a necessary evil but can be turned into good if it is put to proper use. I don’t know much about money because I don’t have any so I can only give my valid opinion from my perspective. 

Money is the root of every evil they say. I am trying to wrap my mind around the workings and mechanisms of money. Why? It’s the one thing that is running the world but only a few have access to this ultimate power. They will do whatever in their power to stay among the few who are running the world. There is something about it that I just don’t get it. Like the missing piece of the puzzle. Something that is hidden and I can't quite understand. 

I mean what is keeping people from not using money? I mean it’s a piece of paper. I know it holds value and the central government says so. But if it’s a piece of paper that the government can print out anytime, isn’t it unlimited? But resources are limited and you can only buy a limited amount. But what if the government prints more money keeps large sums for itself and raises the price of every other product and resource. Because now the Elites have butt loads of print money, they can buy while other citizen’s money value decreases. Shit. I was on to something. But it’s already public knowledge so It’s no big deal. I mean for people who understand how money works. For those who don’t and keep doing corporate jobs and thinking of making it big, it’s gonna hit them like a truck when they get old enough to understand that money is just a piece of paper that has no value. The person who put value is the one who runs this money department and they are the one who is fucking the civilians. I mean I should go shopping so I am not able to continue this. Damn! Just when things are getting really interesting, I should leave and go do my responsibilities.  

I'm back. I think I need to read a book about economics and how money works. That would be a great idea. And I don’t mean boring textbooks with technical knowledge. More like something interesting with examples and things that are applied in the real world. Like the book by Yuval Noha such as Sapiens. It portrays history in the most interesting ways and how humanity shapes itself through the passage of time. Okay, I should stop writing because it’s 10:23 already. Where did all that time go? What did I do? Shit. 

It’s really difficult to open my mind after a break because I am now lost in a thought jungle and I cannot find any specific thing to talk about. I can talk about money. Yes. I need money. How do I understand money? About inflation, deflation, tax, currency exchange/rate, GDP, and everything there is to learn about money. Also assets and liabilities. 

Recently, I found a reel that really hit me with the realization that creating products is totally different than selling them. Since I am also the son of a shopkeeper, I thought once the product is here, we add 10% of the total price and sell it. This can be true while selling retail products, but in the case of producing and selling, it's a different story. There are Tax, housing costs, commission costs, risk factor, materials, research and so many things that go into consideration. 

And that made me rethink selling my art. I know I have to spend before I earn but my pricing was either too low or too high. I cannot find the sweet spot. I thought like a shopkeeper selling my art according to material cost but now I realise that it’s not the case. I have to consider other factors too. Are there any books that will help me define shark tank marketing strageties and costs? I will ask to chatGPT. Okay