4/22/2025

 

4/22/2025  5:40 

And now it’s time to write my thoughts down. I just took a bath, and here’s what I think about: taking a cold shower early in the morning. If you wake your face up by washing it with cold water, why not wake your whole body by taking a cold shower? Why is doing something good ridiculed in today's era, and doing something bad, like smoking and drinking alcohol, is glorified today? I don’t know what's with this world anymore, and I am done trying it. I will do whatever I want. I mean whatever is good to me and to my family. 

It’s something to be considered. I mean it’s 6:46 and I am already a little done with the chore. I swept the rooftop, and tomorrow I'll clean the ridges of the rooftop. While sweeping the dust, I kinda had these thoughts like everything’s turned to dust. I was lost deep in thought, but the chirping of birds woke me up from my dream to reality, where I saw nothing but dust and debris. I think I should be rhyming more. Na. Anyways. Where was I? I get why Apple won’t let me customize the key. For security reasons, obviously, but why am I pondering things I have no control over? I should be thinking of things I actually have control over. Like today. What are my goals, objectives, and purpose on this very day? Today is the day. My last day on this planet is o relish and live to my fullest. This day, on 22 April of 2025, won't ever return again, so live as if it’s your last. I mean to think about it. It is the last minute, hours, and days of your li, and you will never get it back. What you do today is what matters the most. I keep saying this to myself, but what about tomorrow? You know what I also say. One stitch in time saves nine. I mean it’s not my word, but it’s principal words. It’s funny how we interpret things in our childhood as a lame ass life lesson but it's actually those small efforts that amalgamate to something larger than life. And without noticing, it takes over your life and drives you towards serenity or doom. The choices we make every day are actually what make our lives in total. But we tend to look over it or brush it off. Damn! I am lost in my own topic. What was my point? 

What was I saying? Anyways. Gotta keep my head together and be more linear than open-ended. Ahh, by that sentence, I have come to unravel my previously buried thoughts. While I was sweeping the rooftop. I was like, Damn! It is actually good to clean and do some housework. Why do most people ignore the simple, basic facts about life? I mean, hy, after all this advancement in technology, are people still drawn more towards the human touch of work? I mean people are more attached to simple acts of living like sweeping the dust, washing clothes, and squeezing off the excess water and hanging them to dry. I mean like a cottage core vibe with limited use of technology. Or we can go… what do we call the fusion of nature and technology? Naturepunk? I forgot the name, and I won't Google it because I don’t want to lose focus. Anyways, it’s like the scenes from Ghibli movies where people are seen cleaning or doing household chores like washing vegetables, cutting them, and cooking. Dusting of the self. These kinds of things don’t add to the story, but they definitely give characters their characteristics. I mean, what's a story but a series of choices the person makes according to the time and place they are in. The only thing the director has to do is to make it cohesive and complete. 

So here we are, talking about movies and film direction. From sweeping floors to directing films, what's the common factor between those two? I don’t know? Maybe everything or maybe nothing at all. I am here just to observe the essence of life, the functionality, and the aesthetic of tit As a director, all I can do is throw some random bullshit at the protoganist and hope that s/he overcome those obstacles or atleast learn from it. 

What the hell am I saying? I am going off topic. But people really like, or used to like, cottage core videos. The pillow shots are what we call them, where nothing happens but tells some stories. I can see myself in finthe reflection of this iPad, like when the game is loading with a lack screen, and you are there with your reflection, questioning your whole life choices, and that suddenly puts you into an existential zone. During childhood, we had nothing to fear from our reflection since we were naive, innocent children with no responsibility. And now, the loading black screen of self-reflection reflects our regrets, anxiety, and responsibilities that make us question our existence. And then we are back to gaming when it loads 100%. Why do we play games? To escape reality and to explore fantasy.  

Shit! I think I should be doing something else rather than writing down my thoughts. This keyboard is awesome when you get the hang of it. My only concern is this highly sensitive trackpad. Plus, I figured out these settings on accessibility to tweak the track to my preference. What I should be doing now is making my daily routine to follow. A man without a mission is a vehicle without roads. I just made that up. I should probably be making a routine or to-do list for today.