5/20/2025 7:46 AM

 It’s finally happening. I am officially broke now. Got no money in my bank. It’s survival time now. The faith has been written already, and now I am to do a job. I should work on my designs and shit. Yes. I have no money to go anywhere else. And now I have to laser focus on developing my design skills. 

You must try things that may not work. Okay, I did that, and it’s not working. I believe doing work is an investment in life. At some point in your life, things will turn up, but not now. I thought I could read in a place alone with my iPad, but that’s not the case. I couldn’t. I know I could, but I have not tried reading on my iPad in public spaces. Most of the time, I usually. 

I am serious. At the point where everything seems expensive because I’ve got no money to buy anything. Everything is expensive when you’ve got no money to buy. I’ve still got a lot of shopping to do, but no money, no honey. My quest to prove that money is not everything has made me broke as fuck but I will prove it nevertheless. It’s not about survival, as you can survive on one meal a day on the street, sleeping anywhere. It’s about thriving and making a name. 

What is the name of the game? Power! I have no idea where this will lead me, but you know what, I am happy wherever it leads me because I am doing whatever I want to do, so that it is not a problem till now. Sometimes shit happens and you can do nothing but to move on. What is money, what is power, what is wealth? So many questions and yet no answer. So. 

Work on a project to land a job. I think I should write down today's work. First of all, I don’t have any money to do whatever I yearn for. But I still have some supplies. This is the time to do something and to prove my worth. All this writing will lead me nowhere, but at least my mind will be clear, and I will find the right direction to work. Damn! 70k. Yup, I need 70k to repair my Iphone. But but. What to say, I’ve got no words to speak. Money money money. I was on the roof and saw these big buildings far into the landscape, and within small houses. Some were apartments where fewer than ten percent of people stayed, some were big complexes made for VIPs, and hotels for guests. And I think to myself, where did all this money come from, and for whom? I mean, most of the Nepalese people are middle-class, and every teenage dreamer is living abroad. So what compels them to build these big buildings when the average Nepali still goes to Ason Bazaar to buy stuff at a cheap price? Hard work and smart work can't make you filthy rich and successful anymore. You need to get your hands dirty and do things nobody dared to do, a nd only you can be prosperous. I mean, rules or laws don’t apply to the filthy rich people who have power in their hands. So why not make connections with those people and ask for aid in times of need? Everything is a manipulation game, and anyone can be a star in this current internet era. So what can be done? What must I do? I don’t know, man. Go read The One Thing again and find answers there. I mean you must do one thing, and if you don’t know what you want to do, the one thing you have to do is to find the thing you want to do. 

What is the one thing I must do? Tell me goddammit. 

What I should not do.

Stay away from toxic people. And don’t get attached to girls. 

Money is just a concept. If money is a concept, then everything is just a fragment of the concept. Money brings value, but it’s not there. People are giving services and selling products for money. What are they getting in return? Money ofcourse. But what if we exchange services? That's a good thing, but money is universal, and nothing can replace money for now. Until this internet banking and online transactions. It is there, but not physically. And that got me thinking. It was never there in the first place. So whatever we do and how much we do, those who have the power to print money and create wealth out of thin air or with some tampered report will always have their monopoly over common people. I am not here for powerful people in the highest position. I am here to understand how money works and how to counter the effect of money on people.